Gender Anticipation!

As with most couples expecting their second child, I always feel that their is more anticipation concerning the gender of the child the second go around. The first child everyone is excited about because it's the first and any grandchild of random gender is welcomed. The second time around I think the family is hoping to get a child of opposite gender of the first so the family can be "complete" and in turn have a matched set. Not that I blame family at all for the anticipation that I am feeling right now. I am about 19 and half weeks pregnant currently and feeling long over due for my ultrasound. Most people I know that are due around the same time that I am have known the genders of their future child for couple of weeks, but not me. :o( The specialist I have to go to is just being "old school" and due to the typical weights of most of the patients he sees being in the 220's they have upped the number of weeks that you have to be to avoid patients having to come back in for a second ultrasound.

Now trying to be polite with the very nice lady on the phone when I made my appointment, way back at 15 weeks, I didn't want to argue and say I was a very petite individual and you could have told me everything I needed to know probably last week. Instead I have patiently been waiting the five weeks and the anticipation has been building.

In the meantime the desire to have a girl to complete my "set" has been building as well. My husband and Ethan's Poppy David have also made their desire for daughter/granddaughter known. Matt is currently putting on the pounds right along with me and have cravings, sure signs everyone says that we are expecting a girl. Poppy the father of two boys and step-father to three more has said to be getting goofy expressions on his face every time he sees a infant girl or passes pink dress in a store.

I myself feel a pang of guilt when I pass by the cute girls clothes in the Babies R Us and feel a strong sense of longing, wanting to be part of the "mothers of a baby girl club" and for once be able to shop in that section of the store. However, before I am taken the wrong way, don't get me wrong I will love this baby no matter what its gender is and am foremost praying for its health before anything else. I just feel like I have reached my breaking point for waiting and need some reassurance on the health front and to get this gender mystery out of the way before it consumes us. Only four days left, I guess I can make it. Hopefully :o)